This entry sums up my job-searching process that'd happened between Oct 21-Nov 13
but it had been saved as a draft since Oct 30
"Life is so short to wake up in the morning with regrets
So love the people who treat you right
Forget about the ones who don't
And believe that everything happens for a reason
If you get a chance, take it
If it changes your life, let it
Nobody said life would b easy
They just promised it would be worth living."
(Unknown author)
This quotation touched my heart
Immediately I felt that it may be what God wants me to understand especially the
5th & 6th lines
I've never really been in such situation...
not knowing what's the right path to choose
There seems to be full of choices & opportunities
but I surrender my life to Him
I know my plan may not work out well
since He may have arranged a more suitable one
I tell myself to wait for His message patiently
as I've been very dissatisfied & disappointed of myself for always not being an obedient child
who audaciously tries God
It's a difficult decision to reach at
as I habitually tend to embrace autonomy & independence
& free from external influences, whenever possible
I've got so scared that I may fail His tests
Yet when I did face some
I didn't blame Him for putting me into troubles
I stayed calm & thought about solutions
Surprisingly there wasn't any "true" solution
Faith is the key
It was because there was Him in my soul that I could deal with hardships
I proudly acclaim that I finally successfully have faith in Him
& have Him to be my sole Decision Maker WITHOUT doubts
And I asked "how come I turned to be this way?"
Somehow I just feel that He's leading me
that He's listening to me
that He's a true Savior
... and all these are feelings that are novel but uplifting to me
Somehow I feel it's the time to
Let Go & Let God
-- When you take a chance & wanna make it right but the process isn't smooth
That's the signal His wants to hint you that other options are there for you
He knows what's the best for us
Why opt for something that's not meant to be yours?
Why go for the route which's harder to travel?
Why still stay in despair & helplessness when He has reaching His hands at you? --
I know...
not many hearts can understand Him
I believe...
I don't need to understand anything about Him doing some ways but not others
I just...
trust Him
Same goes for the TNS Research Exec position...
I wasn't expecting this offer
I thought I would take the PR Exec
Both are the biggest global companies
Both base at KL
Both pay really well
"Which is the one?"
Painful & confusing job hunting process...
TNS called me & I went for the 1st screening through a few tests
Prepared it last minute
so I assumed it wouldn't turn out great
The HR however gave me surprises
asking me to stay with them & not applying other jobs
She assured that I'm the best "quantitative"-type candidate
"Are you really giving me this job?"
I'm asking in my heart
The experience was invaluable & unforgettable, anyway
At the end of the session
I felt that it was the right choice
I felt that my potential would be completely expanded
& what I'd learned during college would help me
I don't get anxious & stressed anymore
Hardly could I sense any burden
neither did I step stumble upon impediments
I'm contented with current life
& I'm growing anew each day
What all I want is to stay close to Him
& let Him fulfill me
I promise myself that I shall play my role well
that in me, you see His grace & miracles
... and this is my ultimate happiness
May every soul be enriched, be blessed always
A Big Thanks to Lord!!!
Lord, if I'll be accepted into TNS with high pay great benefits
I think You too, would know what kinda changes You've made in me
that for every step I grow
I'd write everything down & praise You high for Your love to me
You know what I can do & what I can take for challenges
You know I hardly can trust anything/anyone else but You
I'm very delighted that when I got turned down by the Datacom job
I didn't get mad with You
Instead my heart told me that there's of course a better choice
I'm not sure why I felt so
but I still believe in you although the whole plan couldn't be taken anymore
I'm still waiting... waiting for your plan to be fulfilled in me
In Jesus name I pray, Amen ; )
