Just before I started working, I wrote Sensibility of Life to remind myself how to face hardships... More of my ability of facing hardships though. I'm blessed I'm not alone handling all the bullshits.
Never really thought of posting any more entries...
I have a bad habit of reading past entries from time to time so if I'm trying to move forward, not recording daily happenings would be the best way. Simply, I just want to live everyday to the fullest, be it a happy ending or not, it is still the well blend of the sweet & the bitter. If a human can't be honest & genuine to acknowledge own emotions, that'll be pathetic.
I've been thinking a lot since the journey of coming back from Bangkok with my mom. I knew I made a wrong decision & this acts as a trigger to seriously contemplate about my lifestyle. I can't right the wrong. It's time to make a change. I don't want to tell anyone about this path & I don't need to... because everyone around me would be able to feel or to see every bit of changes.
What kind of changes I'm referring to, I'm figuring it out... I hereby list it down for my own reference, to stick to my own promises:
1. Join a gym
I always dream of regaining the exercising regime that I once had during Uni years. As my team goals get cleared in Jan, I'll manage to plan it properly. I remember I start my dancing classes since 5. I would love to learn new dances if time ever permits.
2. Re-manage my finance
Depending on my salary next year, I'll either choose an investment insurance or a bigger portion of saving for better assurance & security that no one on earth can ever offer me. I'm so fucking scared of insufficient funds for any emergencies, like all those disastrous nightmares & burdens encountered at 20.
3. Pick up on painting
Started drawing & painting learning since 7 until 14 plus regular self-practicing sessions during secondary school days, I can't help but to recollect all the memories related to this art. Now I realize how much colors mean to me. The sense of peace & warmth... I miss it so much. Enough said.
4. Travel on my own
Just wanna experience observing people, taking random photos of pedestrians along the streets. Just put everything aside, think nothing, look & feel what's going on around us.
5. Scalp treatment
This is at the top of this list. Wanna begin the treatment ASAP so my scalp problem can be appropriately treated & healed, hopefully it's not too late. You know... when you have some loose cash to do something for yourself, especially something that you yearn to do for a long time, you wouldn't hesitate to invest to make it work. Can't afford to delay it anymore though, so I shall start this first amongst all.
That's all about it I guess.
